-Faithfull-

-Great is the Lord-

2009-01-01T21:28:00.009+11:00

-Great is the Lord-

GREAT IS THE LORD AND MOST WORTHY
OF PRAISE
THE CITY OF OUR GOD,
THE HOLY PLACE
THE JOY OF THE WHOLE EARTH.

GREAT IS THE LORD WITH WHOM
WE HAVE THE VICTORY
HE AIDS US AGAINST THE ENEMY
WE BOW DOWN ON OUR KNEES.

AND LORD WE WANT TO
LIFT YOUR NAME UP HIGH
AND LORD WE WANT TO THANK YOU
FOR THE WORK YOU'VE
DONE IN OUR LIVES

AND LORD WE TRUST
IN YOUR UNFAILING LOVE
FOR YOU ALONE ARE GOD ETERNAL
THROUGHOUT EARTH
AND HEAVEN ABOVE.

yes the Lord is the great and faithful that has seen us through yet another year..

and as we head into this new year of 2009,

just wanted to share a little note of encouragement.

Today, dear friends, we stand upon the verge of the unknown.

There lies before us the new year and we are going forth to possess it.

Who can tell what we shall find?

What new experiences, what changes shall come, what new needs shall arise?

But here is the cheering, comforting, gladdening message from our Heavenly Father,

" The Lord thy God careth for it."

"His eyes are upon it from the beginning of te year even unto the end of the year."

If He be the Source of our mercies, they can never fail us.

No heat, no drought can parch that river.

The land is a land of hills and valleys.

It is not all smooth nor all downhill.

If life were all one dead level, the dull sameness would oppress us;

we ant th hills and the valleys.

The hills collect the rain for a hundred fruitful valleys.

It is the hill difficulty that drives us to the throne of grace and brings down the shower od blessing;

the hills, thr bleak hills of life that we wonder at and perhaps grumble at, bring down the showers.

We cannot tell what loss and sorrow and trial are doing.

TRUST only.

The Father comes near to take our hand and lead us on our way today.

It shall be a good, and blessed new year!!

-Mrs Charles Cowman-

-unfailing love-

2008-06-22T00:33:00.003+10:00

You have my heart
And I am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The one I hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still you make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

I will praise You
Praise you God of earth and sky
How beautiful is your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My Unfailing love

Unfailing love

-Chris Tomlin-

Thank You Lord that you love me the same yesterday, today and forever.

Lord, you created EVERYTHING

yet you make time for me,

i cannot comprehend how precious i am to you

but you love me unconditionally and your love is unfailing.

You never change Lord...

my thoughts, my desires and hopes and dreams seems to change everyday

but yet your love remains.

Oh Lord, thank you for loving me.....

i'm so filled and blessed and overwhelmed by your love

Lord help me to share your love,

help me love others with your love.

Lord help me to trust in your unfailing love more and more each day

and thank you that NOTHING can seperate me from Your love.

As I sit in church and listen to the sermon on suffering and pain.

many thoughts rush in and out of my mind

yup, the past year, months, weeks have been very trying...

but all i could think of was that God was faithful to see me through

and that cos He loves me..

it was that simple.

His love is so beautiful....

- For All You've Done-

2008-01-01T15:36:00.001+11:00

For all You've done
For all You're going to do
We give You thanks
And lift our praise to You
We give thanks, We give praise
For we know that all things work together
For our good
We give thanks, We give praise
For by faith
We know Your grace will see us through
For all those things
That we don't understand
We come by faith
And place them in Your hands
We give thanks, We give praise
For we know that all things work together
For our good
We give thanks, We give praise
For by faith
We know Your grace will see us through

Even if we stumble

Even if we fall

You will not forsake us

You are King and Lord of all

Lord of all

-Don Moen-

today marks the first day of a new year....

2008

its amazing how time actually just flies by so fast.

looking back on the past year,

i cant say that it was a good year neither can i say that it was bad

it has had its ups and its downs..

but standing here at the beginning of a new year and looking back at the old..

it just reassures me that by faith, God's grace will see us through anything.

it has been a trying year and still at the end God's plans and purposes still previles.

He is faithful to give us future and a hope.

As i look on ahead, i'm sure it wont be a smooth one,

but I know who holds the future and i know who holds my hand.

Thank You dear Lord.

the year has gone, but it has also made us strong

the path was long but we walked upon it with a song

there were tears and fears,

but also reason for cheers.

as we look ahead to 2008

i pray the Lord will go before you

Blessed 2008!!

-we are the reason-

2007-12-24T00:26:00.000+11:00

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

by Avalon

Christmas is here once again...

as i sit back and look around,

the emptiness and lonliness start to sink in.

aren't i supposed to be at home in the warm embrace of my mum and dad

round the table with that wonderful christmas feast,

friends to laugh and sing with.

oh well in the past christmas presents were so important,

staying up late on christmas eve just to make sure each and everyone of them had a gift.

then i came to realise that christmas wasnt about gifts or food,

it was who you were with,

the very warmth and love of family and friends.

lying awake, away from home,

i have none of the above...

i feel so....

BORED..

is christmas ment to be like that....

then i started to ponder...

what is christmas...

have i really sat back and thought about it...

and as i sat, as i thought.

Christmas is more than presents and trees,

its even much more than being with the ones you love,

its about GOD.

Its about GOd fulfilling His promise.

Its that simple.

its not just a birthday we remember,

its a moment that has changed our lives.

Yes we were the reason he came,

the reason he suffered

so is He the reason i live?

Lord, this christmas I just want to live in the wonder of your faithfulness,

and i just want to thank you.

-takes a little time-

2007-09-18T20:39:00.000+10:00

It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the titanic turned back around
It takes a little time sometimes
But baby you're not going down
It takes more than you've got right now
Give it time

Whats this walking through my door
I know Ive seen the look before
Sometimes in faces on the street
Sometimes in the mirror looking back at me
You cant fix this pain with money
You cant rush a weary soul
You cant sweep it under the rug, now honey
It don't take a lot to know

It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the titanic turned back around
It takes a little time sometimes
But baby you're not going down
It takes more than you've got right now
Give it time

Now it may not be over by morning
But rome wasnt built in a day
You can name this thing a thousand times
But it wont make it go away
Let me put my arms around you
And hold you while you weep
Weve been talking and talking
Im sick of this talk
And its nothing that wont keep

It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the titanic turned back around
It takes a little time sometimes
But baby you're not going down
It takes more than you've got right now
Give it time

No you cant fix this pain with money
You cant rush a weary soul
You cant sweep it under the rug now honey
It dont take a lot to know

It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the titanic turned back around
It takes a little time sometimes
But baby you're not going down
It takes more than you've got right now
Give it time

by Amy Grant

yes it does take a little time sometimes to get our feet back on the ground...
it has been a very trying year for me...
having graduated with degree, i thought the next step would be getting a job but getting the job was the hardest thing..
application after application,
rejection after rejection...
i din even knew if people saw my resume cos i was never called in for an interview..
it was definitely a very low time for me...
and everyone around me would encourage me with words and prayers and i did get heaps and heaps of help with resumes and job applications...
but i still had nothing and had to wait..
well i was content with what i had..
i didn't mind what i was doing... but deep down inside i knew i had to opt out sooner or later cos it was breaking my parents hearts
though we often say we live for ourselves and we do what we wanna do in life for our happiness
but i am where i am now and i have come this far by God's grace and my parents support
so I owe God my life and i ought to at least give my parents advice some consideration
so ya i did want another job... but it never came till....
now...
i'm so blessed to have been offered a good job.. its definitely a good mix of things that i would like to do.. and will be something different that i would like to try out...
looking back though its been trying... its been a good wait and GOd has been faithful,
all things do work out for the good of those who love the Lord
and its in Gods timing..
sometimes we just have to wait...
it is the hardest while we wait...
but at the end of the day,trust that our GOd is faithful, and will make it worth the wait

so it does take a little time sometimes to get our feet back on the ground, but be encouraged that the ground will always be there so sometime, someday, one day your feet will get back on it

this is for u my fren, let me put my arms around u while u weep
cos u were there when i needed to weep

-made to worship-

2007-09-02T23:19:00.001+10:00

- wait for me -

2007-07-24T09:22:00.000+10:00

Darling did you know that I
I dream about you
Waiting for the look in your eyes
When we meet for the first time
Darling did you know that I
I pray about you
Praying that you will hold on
And keep your loving eyes only for me

Cause,I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
Darling wait

Darling did you know I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And darling when I say
Till death do us part
I'll mean it with all of my heart
Now and always faithful to you

Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
Darling wait

Now I know you may have made mistakes
But there's forgiveness and a second chance
So wait for me
Darling wait for me
Wait for me
wait for me

Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
Darling wait
Wait for me
Darling wait
Cause I'm waiting for you
Cause I'm waiting for you
So wait for me
Darling wait
Wait for me

by Rebecca St James

I wanna wait for you, so please wait for me, my darling....

- You are GOd ALoNe -

2007-07-11T11:40:00.000+10:00

You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that’s just the way it is

Chorus:
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

You’re the only God
Whose power none can contend
You’re the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You’re the only God
Who’s worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And that’s just the way it is

[chorus]

bridge:
Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That’s what You are

by Phillip, Craig and Dean

YOU ARE GOD AND THATS JUST THE WAY IT IS!!!

-bixie-

2007-03-18T00:54:00.000+11:00

well as last nite was eventful enough...
coming home at 7 i definitely got an earful from the big miss loke...
and feeling all twisted emotionally...
all tired and drained...
i just didnt feel like doing anything
facing anyone...
explaining myself...
do i??
i am a terrible example to everyone around me
i'm a hyprocrite too
i keep telling my young ones not to do these things... but yet "look whos talking man"
damn damn damn...
life is quite messed up..
i so just wanna settle down..
and i'm tired of chasing... trying... moving no where..
i'm tired of feeling so much worse off than everyone else..
its sux...

but comes along bixie... with the biggest surprise of all
she bought me a present...
and ipod..
and all this was done when i was back home..
she knew i liked it..
she ordered it..
and ta dah..
when i heard that...
i just was once again i was reassured...
that no matter how hard the world hurts u...
how bad and lousy u feel inside...
a family's love
a sister's kind thoughts and love...
covers it all...
i love my sister becky...
how i wish i could be a better example to her..
how i wish i could make her proud...
for i know she makes very proud!!

-confessions of a shoppaholic-

2006-11-24T17:07:00.000+11:00

confessions of a shoppaholic:
sins over the past 2 and half weeks... (since the 6th NOV)

firstly got this for $45 from myer.. especially for the melb cup... well seeing that i was wearing my sister's $19 dress which didnt cost my anything so i decided to splurge on this... and it matches my dress TOTALLYY!!!
oh yah... and this hair piece (facinator-- wat they call it)went on a journey... my friend was buying it for me cos i was at work the day before the cup and i had HAD to get it...and apparently he left the thingy on the tram.. and actually ran after the tram to get it back.. the things frens do for me... thanks!!! but i probably would have killed him.... if he didnt...hahahahahaaha....

yes yes matches rite!!

then came the nite when i gallivanted to chadstone by myself after picking up a nice reference from my lecturer... well it was late nite shopping thursday anyway and i was around the area.....and i HAD to buy something or would defeat the whole adventure of going to chaddies by myself late at nite... taking an unknow bus.....
so heres what i got...

little black dress....

.... .... and nice black belt to match it...

then.. came DFO day at Cheltenham...

there was heaps to see.. lots to try but nothing really caught my eye...

but in giodarno
this top was on sale and so was this jacket-->
so... guess u know wat happened.. BUT the BEST part is..

my fren was getting a pair of pants so we paid together.. and the deal for the day was buy 2 items and get the third free... so i got my black top FREEEE...
but i thought i'd share the "free-ness" with my friend so i paid half of it...
but was still a good buy...

this is my fantabulous wallet!!!! yay i finally got a nice new pretty guess wallet
i've been looking for a nice wallet and was going to use the $60 guess voucher i had...
so been looking at guess wallets but they didnt seem to have what i wanted
or nothing seemed to be of liking..
but anyways i found this at DFO... but couldnt use my voucher...
but oh well original price was $69.90
but i got it for $42 so good enough a deal and big enough for my nonsense...

following DFO.. was the Brand Smart VIP nite...
headed to boxhiil for dinner first

-my other little black dress-

this was an implusive buy... was on the way to meet my friends for dinner and was just walking towards them.. when i stumbled across this shop.. and this little black dress which i have tried on heaps of times at DFO but never really decided to get it cos it was always at least $50 which wasnt wat i intended to pay for a plain cotton black dress...but here in boxhill plaza... it was a $24 and they just happened to have my size (last piece) so yes i got it.. and this even before our shopping spree at Brand Smart... and while i was trying it my friend called to ask where i was.. and i was like " i'mk buying a dress" and she was like "WHAT so fast!!" its just the kindda reaction i can imagine her to give... hahahahaha... but was a happy black dress that i like...

this colourful "school uniform look alike"
this is from brandsmart...went all the way there... i had to get something... so this is it...it can be worn as a top too... so colourful and summery... i like it....
just a little transparent.. but okie la... set me back another $24.90

then came my twin dresses from JAY JAYS
was $25 for 2.. so how can u resist that!!!i like the blue lots!!!!
but then again do they make me look pregnant??
oh well.. at least i dun loook that short in them cos they arent that long which is good....

then came the VIP nite of CHADDIES....hahahahahaha.... was opened until midnight and the best bit was there was a nice free shuttle bus

my bumble beee top!!!!

belts from jeans west
ribbon actually...
but belty enough

p/s: theres heaps more ever since than... but that will take me forever to put it up and write about it... but i guess u get the point...

-irritating pain in the neck-

2006-11-14T20:13:00.000+11:00

u are just another ordinary fren

u walked into my life there n then
but when i got to know u
the real u i finally knew...

you're such an irritating pain...
you dont do much..
but the little things u do that seem harmless irritate me to the core
ur not my mother
nor my father
but everyday u seem to wanna know wat i'm doing
why i do wat i do...
i'm really sick and tired of you

why do u keep calling me
why do u keep laughing at everything i say when its not even funny
why do u keep wanting to hang out with my frens...
well sometimes i just dont want u there cos i need time out from u
ur there ur here ur everywhere...

i know u just wanna be my good fren and know me well
but one thing for sure at this rate
u really annoy me to hell...
go away please
leave me alone for now
until i find the love to treat u well
cos one day i might just snap
n our friendship will just fall to crap

so dun bug me please
and give me some peace

-grad day-

2006-11-08T22:45:00.000+11:00

i cant believe i graduated today..
not cos its finally over..
but how the day went by...
all in all from the start i was fairly cool
as my family got ready in the last minutes ...
but i dunno what came over me...
when we were taking fotos out on the lawn....
i jus snapped...
i dunno why...
and i got all mang zhang...
probably was cos i had this whole "perfect graduation " in mind
and it wasnt going as planned....
and yah... as usual... i took it out on my parents..
n i did something... NO CHILD should ever i mean EVER do or say..
i told my parents to go home...
on my grad day...
how on earth did those words..
those hurtful words come out from my mouth...
i didnt mean them...
they waited so long for this day....
and were all excited...
did EVERYTHING they could for me to be happie this day
and what did i do...
i spoilt it for them....
i hate myself
i really do hate myself for hurting the ones so dear...
it was the worst grad...
i i really wanna turn back time...
but i cant...
i sorry is all i can say...
but doesnt change anything...
proud they were... hurt they are...

initially written on the 13/10/06
posted on 8/11/06 for Eujin to read for 2mins and taken down

-4 pairs in 3 days-

2006-09-11T19:26:00.000+10:00

You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
You're so vain
I'll bet you think this song is about you
Don't you? Don't you?

by

Carly Simon

as the title says it all... yes i actually bought 4 pairs of shoes in 3 days...
and today i just got another pair... so dat makes 5 in a week...
thats the ultimate shopaholic man...
i cant belive myself...
is this wat i do with my first pay...
cant i just resist temptation...
why...
but they were pretty...
but not say i'm gonna wear them everyday....
what was i thinking...
i guess was impulsion..
and my whole theory stands... retail therapy does work...
but wears off in less than 24 hrs..
and yes i am so vain...
i probably think its all bout me.. and how i look..
how selfish eh..

reminds me of my overconfidence....
what was i thinking...
i just assumed that they needed me badly and it would be mine for sure...
i even freaked out when i thought that i had to make arrangements in such short time
BUT
cos of my OVERCONFIDENCE....
i assumed all wrong...
and what i'm left with now...
ive only got myself to blame....

oh how vanity sux...
screws up my life....
but oh well...
we'll just move on...
as life goes on...
and so do we....
i guess...hahahhahaha...
no time for regrets...
just enjoy my buys...
hahahahahaha....
-dairies of esther the shopaholic-

-thats when i love you-

2006-08-31T01:16:00.000+10:00

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my moind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

.: by Aslyn :.

awwwwwwWWWWwww.... this song is just so sweet...
theres two ways of looking at this in my life...
first
'thats when i LOVED you'
when you did all that you did....
i LOVED you no matter what
and I made the promise to be there for you for life
and nothing you do could change my mind
thats when i loved you...
no matter what you do...or did..
second
thats when i love you..
for the one to come...
thats when i love you
and the day we say 'i do' its the same day i'll promise to be there for u always
and i'll love you no matter what....
-winks-

-expose-

2006-08-26T22:58:00.000+10:00

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time with all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now, and I'm alone and free
I know that I oughta get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I oughta find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

No matter what I do
It's like a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I've ever loved
And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I'll never get over you
Getting over...
Never get over you getting over...
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

by expose

hahahaha.....
how time flies... and yes i'm in that mode again...
thinking yet again about the past... well at least this song doesnt really describe me completely...
i'm not bawling my eyes out...
but this song did come to my mind as i sat there...
looking thru past fotos and reliving memories...
what he said today was true...
deep down inside..
i'll never get over you...
well not that i dont want to...
its just that i've gotta get over myself first...
ive let you go...
ive seen u walk away...
but why cant i get over u and move on....
i tell myself i have feelings for another..
but yet i still hold on to the hope thats just like water...
something you cant hold on to and just slips away thru my fingers..
well i dun hate u...
i just cant seem to forget u...
maybe i just dont want to...
but then again this is just one of those days...
when i'm in one of those modes...
and theres no where to let it out but here...
so here we go again...

i'm a sucker for love...
but then again i love the fact that we had the memory....

dont be sad that its over, be glad that it happened!!

- Eternal Treasures-

2006-04-24T15:04:00.000+10:00

~useless treasures that i keep seeking~

Eternal Treasures

when i face my Creator,
what will my response be?
will i be able to give an account,
on the life He has given me?
what things do i hold dear to me?
does these things last for eternity?
will everything that i own,
make a difference when my life is no longer to be?

though i know this,
why do i still seek the things that doesn't matter?
why do i only seek things that bring me pleaseure?
why do i store up these useless tresures?
Oh Lord teach me to seek the things that matter.
not just the things that bring me pleasure.
for moth and rust will destroy all that i treasure,
but the things of the Lord will last forever.

Oh Lord thank you for reminding me,
to seek things that matter.
You said Oh Lord,
where my treasure is,
there my heart will be also,
so Lord teach me to store my treasures in You,
because You are all that matters.

so my friends i pray you'll also remember,
to seek things that matter,
let us make a difference where we are,
and bring glory to God's Kingdom.
hopefully when we meet our creator in Heaven,
He will say to us 'well done, you good and faithful servant'.

words by Alvin Lee

as i sat there and read this, it really struck me that all my lie... or at least most of it here in melbourne.. i've been chasing all these things that don't really matter...
spending heaps and heaps on clothes after clothes that i don't really need...
buying small little cheap nick nacks to match wat i wear,
when altogether i can say i've spent a bomb..
I am so Vain!!does it reallie matter that i look nice when i go out...
and embarassing as it my sound i even dress up when i'm at home
can ask my bixie to testify to that.
but then again i always told myself that it motivates me to study...
WHAT CRAP!!! its just another lame excuse to cover up my vanity....

just look at the amount of earrings i have... and those are just studs...
can u imagine the no. of danglies i have...
its about time i started seeking eternal treasures
but its so difficult to overcome the temptation of shopping
but God please show me Your grace and mercy and help me only get things that i need and not want..
and at the end of the day when i die..
where do all these things go???
they are left behind here,
my life would jus be summarised as a 'dash' on my tombstone,
not by the wonderful matching i made with clothes and accessories..

~Lord help me to live simply so that others can simply live~

~S u M m E r T i M e S~

2006-04-22T01:36:00.000+10:00

Take me back to the sweet times
the hot nights
everything is gonna be alright
in the summertime
baby in the summertime
and even if i have to wait till next year
i dont care
all i know is that i'll meet you there
in the summertime
baby in the summertime
that's where i'll be

-thirsty merc-
~~take me back to the summertime~~
yet another summer has come and gone...
and another holidae has just passed me by.
as we sang this song on our road trip along the great ocean road
it really dawned on me how i missed my summer holidays
and how each year i do look forward to them and just enjoying them to the max
how there were just so many sweet times and HOT nites
ahhhhhhhh...
and even if i had to wait till next year
i actually do care
cos ive got to go thru all the many assignments and sickerning stuff uni throws me
but everything is gonna be alright
cos God will see me thru each day
and yes of cos YOU will see me there again in the summertime
cos thats where i belong

~eagerly waiting to go home but yet enduring whats here and praying for what is to come~

-crossroads-

2006-04-18T17:43:00.000+10:00

standing at the crossroads

i fear i face a question where my heart and mind
are worlds apart
'cause life is not an alleyway
its riddled with thousands of choices
opportunites we can embrace

standing at the crossroads
i open out my arms and lift my face to feel
which way the wind will blow
on my right familiar faces
on my left an unknown place as
questions mark the road beyond the rise

so take me
step by step and hand in hand
i'll walk with You
where will You have me?

standing at the crossroads
i think of all the kind advice and
ponder still, my God's desire
dreams are fine because the move us
to keep in mind its all about Jesus
to ultimately help people to see
the Saviour who gave all to set us free

so hold on

standing still
while the world keeps turning
show me if You will
keep this fire burning
faith runs deeper
fear's no keeper
i'll go; pack my bags i'll go

hyelp me know to make decisions
based upon your kingdom
ready to move on
God only knows
i'm tired at standing
at the crossroads

Deb Fung 2004

yup yup.. its been quite a while.. and many things have happened...back to melbourne... back to uni... back to reality...
back to yet another crossroad in life...
and this time have to make yet another decision in life...
why is life full of decision making??
where to from here....
what next....
honestly.........
i reallie dun noe.....
as i sit back each day... time is just ticking away and i'm getting closer to time where i reallie have to make the decision...
but the again is waiting not the way?
i guess i shouldnt just sit back and hope that GOd will open the doors and make a way
i should do what needs to be done rite..
but then again its so complicated and confusing...
forms here forms there
applications here applications there...
can i really work after i graduate???
i guess i've been spoonfed for so many years
and reallie...
its just time to get out of this comfort zone...
can i reallly??
sometimes i wonder if what i say is really wat i wanna do...
or have i jus psyched myself into thinking i really wanna do it...
wat is it that i really want
wat is it that i like..
wat is it that i can do??
ultimately,
what is YOUR plan for my life....
as i stand here at the crossroads..
i pray YOu take over completely and
lead me
....please...

-heaven grocery store-

2006-01-11T02:13:00.000+11:00

i was walking down life's highway a long time ago,

and one day i saw a sign that read "Heaven's Grocery Store".

as i got a little close the door came open wide,

and when i came to myself i was standing inside.

i saw a host of angels. they were standing everywhere,

one handed me a basket and said, "My child shop with care.

everything a Christian needs is in this grocery store.

and if you could not carry them all, you can come back for more".

first i got some PATIENCE. LOVE was in the same row.

further down was UNDERSTANDING, needed everywhere you go.

i got a box or two of WISDOM, a bag or two of FAITH,

i couldn't miss the Holy Ghost, He was all over the place.

i stopped to get some STRENGTH & COURAGE to help me

win the race. and though my basket was getting full,

i remembered to get some GRACE.

i didn't forget SALVATION for that was free.

so i tried to get enough of that to save both you and me.

then i started to the counter to pay my grocery bill,

for i thought i had everythingto do my Master's will.

as i went up the aisle, i saw PRAYER and had to put it in,

for i knew when i stepped outside, i would run into SIN.

PEACE and JOY were plentiful, they were on the last shelf,

SONGS and PRAISES were hanging near, so i just helped myself.

then i said to the Angel, " HOw much do i owe?"

the Angel smiled and said "just take them everywhere you go".

again, i smiled at him and said " how much do i really owe?".

the angel smiled again and said, " my child, JESUS paid your bill a long time ago!"

Author

Ron DeMarco & Friend

- i hate coming back-

2006-01-05T14:18:00.000+11:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHHHH

aaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

i hate coming back!!! i HATE I HATE I HATE...

hello i am already 21.. cant u at least trust me to make my own mistakes and trust me to pick myself up once again.. cant u just trust me to lead my life the way i want to??

cant u jus barely scrap thru and learn the lessons..

cant u jus let me be???

I GUESS U JUS CAnT.. why.. cos the fact that i am still under ur roof.. under ur support under ur supervision... i am still ur child and yes i have to go by ur rules..

well the thing is i'm freaking 21 already!!! cant u at least let me go!! and let me do wat i want...

u were the one who encouraged me to do the summer subject dats the only reason why i'm taking it.. my frens who were supposed to arent anymore...

i know it sux to have to study while u are on holidae.. and i totally regret it...

but this happens EVERY SINGLE year when iget back

i ALWAYS GET IT FROM U THAT I AM GOINg OUT TOO MUCH...

is it my fault dat ive got so many frens to meet up with...

is it my fault dat these pple are actually impt to me..

is it my fault dat we freaking live in jb and takes me forever to get home when i go to singapore?

wats the point of coming back then??

tell me... jus to sit home and bum....

even when i'm home

we're either at each others neck or jus silent backs..

i'm tired...

u dun even wanna hear my story of why i wanna do things the way i do...

u jus want it done ur way...

well hello smell the air... i am not u...

and i've survived thus far by Gods grace...

u were the one who told me dat this year ur verse was that GOd is faithful to keep His promises

and yes i do belive dat HE is and He will..

i belive dat He will be faithful to watever He has promised me...

i'm jus gonna trust Him...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

u reallie spoil my holidaes u know by restricting me and pressuring me so much...

to tink now dat i wanna be a counsellor and listen to this crap but yet this crap is going on in my freaking life.. thanks ah.. so much for encouragement..

- i guess its jus all a dream afterall-

2005-12-22T15:24:00.000+11:00

waking up this morning...

and looking ard...

looking through photos

BAMMMMmmmmm...

it jus occurred to me that i guess all my thoughts could just be yet another dream

i'm jus going through another one of those phases..

and ultimately the most important thing that i need to get out of my head is that

it aint bout me...

aint bout my love life

aint bout how much pple accept me..welcome me

it aint bout how much i actually fit in into different environments

be it here of over there..

it aint bout the slef centered self seeking me...

BUT

its all bout GOD..

he is the reason i live..

the reason i should actually go on living and do the best i can in everything for Him

i may have dreams...

i may aspire to be someone..

but it doesnt matter rite...

TRUST and FAITH

is what should spur me on...

Father, help me please be remineded each day that its all YOU and not bout me

in doing so.. i pray tat "i" will decrease and "U " will increase

in my heart, body and mind

Father, wake me up so i can face reality with YOu by my side!!

-dreaming of you-

2005-12-21T14:50:00.000+11:00

late at nite when all the world is sleeping

i stay up and think of u

and i wish on a star

thats somewhere u are

thinking of me too

cos i'm dreaming of you tonite

till tomorrow i'd be holding you tight

and there's no where in the world i'd rather be

than here in my room

dreaming about you and me

yet another posting on dreams... sometimes i tink i jus dream too much

but this time its jus plain weird... or is it reallie part of Gods plan

well it all started when Mr K walked into my life..

he's a plain simple kindda guy...

nice, smart and Godly... everything you would dream for in a guy

hardly saw him thru the year but once again we did manage to meet..

well there werent exactly sparks between us...

but we got along and if i werent wrong

we had our little moments...

but anyway the point is... that i dun wanna fall for him..

but yet i see myself heading down dat road

back to dreaming... so as i lay my head down to rest...

i ask the Lord please help me get Mr K outta my head... but if he is the one for me..

let me dream of him toniteeeeee...

and trust... as shallow as it may sound i have prayed dat prayer many times

on the guys that i thought came into my life to stay for eternity...

but i have never ever dreamt of them... so wat are the chances for MR K???

well GOd knows why....

cos dat nite...

i did dream of my MR K....

and i woke up wondering is he really the one???

oh Lord please show me.... i pleaded...

and asked for another sign...

but none was given....

and then again last nite i dreamt about MR K....

oh why oh why...

i reallie dun tink i should .... and dun tink its rite...

but then again... could it be real???

dreams.....sometimes GOd uses them to tell u things and sometimes its just ur plain brain at work to spice up ur life....

which is it???....

i honestly dunno...

-my second home-

2005-12-21T03:42:00.000+11:00

we're not that far from bethlehem

where all our hope and joy began

for in our hearts still cherish Him

we're not that far, not that far from bethlehem

yes oh yes its christamas time again....

and yes its a good time jus to hang out with frens and catching up once again...

yay!!! its jus so happy when u take a break from your routine life

and escape to somewhere far away

where the atmosphere is absolutely welcoming and loving

its the kindda thing u need to lift ur spirit.

the kindda warmth u need to feeel when u are low...

thats a place i call my second home...

and its jus amazing to feel so at home in a place dat aint exactly home

and i reallie reallie appreciate each and everyone of the pple who jus came along

to make me feeel special....

i used to come to this place to see the love of life.. at that point of time

of cos there were friends i knew there and met up with...

but of cos deep down inside i knew that my aim of going there was to see the one and only

sadly i tink i took these friends for granted and din understand how much they cared

however, THESE were the same people who stood by me...

accompanied me, spent time with me when i came down and saw him with another babe...

well quite a long while has past...

and now i finally can say that yes we are friends and i am thankful that we are...

on the other hand i am appreciative dat i can still go to this place and not feel ashamed,
rejected, alone...afraid of getting hurt cos i know there are pple who love me jus as i am here

this place is more than the best week of my life...

its more than a place i always got back to...

its home....

thanks

-one day at a time-

2005-07-22T18:16:00.000+10:00

-one day at a time-

one day at a time, with its failures and fears,

with its hurts and mistakes,

with its weakness and tears,

with its portion of pain and burden of care,

one day at a time we must meet and must bear

one day at a time to be patient and strong;

to be calm under trial and sweet under worng;

then its toiling shall pass and its sorrow shall cease;

it shall darken and die, and the night shall bring peace.

one day at a time-but the day is so long,

and the heart is not brave, and the soul is not strong,

O dear Lord be near me all the way

give me courage and patience and strength for each day.

swift cometh the answer, so clear and sweet;

"Yea, I will be with thenn, thy troubles to meet;

I will not forget thee, nor fail thee, nor grieve;

I will not forsake thee, I NEVER will leave."

not yesterday's load we are called on to bear,

Nor tommorrow's uncertain and shadowy care;

why should we look forward or back with dismay?

our needs, as our mercies. are but for that day.

one day at a times, and the day is His day;

He has numbered its hours,

though they haste or delay,

His grace is sufficient; we walk not alone;

As the day, so the strength that He gives is His own.

-Annie Johnson Flint-

-looking back, looking forward-

2005-06-27T16:47:00.000+10:00

how time flies.....

and yet another semester is over...

1sy day....assignmnets... work... driving lessons... and exams...

have jus come and passed me by

looking back... yeah so many things have happened this semester...

both ups and downs...

and its been relatively tedious i think...

running here running there...

meeting you meeting them...

i'm sot tired... and sometimes i wonder

what am i here in melbourne for... to do all these many extra things other study...

why do i do them if they make me stress and extra tired...

why do i stretch myself till i wanna snap

well i guess.. the only comforting thought is that GOd knows how i feel

and He sees the desires of my heart

and if it ain't part of HIs plan He's gonna take me outta there

but till then... i'll jus hang in there i supposed... with God's grace that is sufficient for me

" Your grace is sufficient for me,

YOur strength is made perfect when i am weak

all that i have i lay at Your feet

YOur grace is sufficient for me..."

as tired as i am...

i am looking forward to the coming semester

it is DEFINITELY gonna be yet another tedious one

HOPEFULLY, after passing this semester's exams...

i will move on to third year..

and taking 4 psychology subjects will be quite a handful

and yes yes the 40 days of purpose!!!

am so excited for both my cell grp and my kids church!!!

i belive that GOd will touch many of us...

am praying that GOd will speak to me

its gonna be so exciting!!!

but there's so much to dooooooo

so much time to manage properly....

do i still continue to work..??

what should be my priority??

i know the answer but am i willing to take the necessary step....

oooooohhhhh...my mind is in such a whirl!!!!!

well, dear Lord, this is my prayer...

as i take time off and go away for a little holidae...

speak to me...

jus help me relax and spend time with u

Lord renew me both mentally, physically and spiritually

so that when i come back Lord,

YOu can use me as YOu please and i will have the strength and willingness to surrender all to YOU!!

AMEN

- a walk to remember-

2005-06-11T18:30:00.000+10:00

" i never really knew you,
you were jus another fren.
but when i got to know you
i let my heart unbend

i couldnt help past memories
they would only make me cry
i had to forget my first love,
and give love another try

so i've fallen in love with you
and i'll never let you go
i love you more than anyone
i jus have to let you know"

words from once my very own francis
we definitely walked a walk to remember...
a walk that will stay deep within my heart
a walk i never really wanted to end...
but then again... dun be sad its over but be glad that it happened

-zooom ZooooOmmm ZoooMMMMmmm-

2005-05-22T17:27:00.000+10:00

zooom ZooooOmmm ZoooMMMMmmm
yet another week has flown past me...
i hardly even realised it...
i jue feel that time really flies...
look at me... i'm already gonna finish my second year here in mleb...(if i pass)

oh welll... sometimes i jus wish and wonder why cant time be much more slower than it is...
why cant we have 30 hrs in a day... or 70 sec to make up a minute...
i jus want more time than i have...
everyday i wake up... and so many awaits me...
so many thoughts jus spring into my mind...
and cant but wish i could jus go back to sleep so i wounldnt have to think HOw do i allocate my time wisely
i run frm here to there doing this and that for him and her...
when will i ever have the chance to sit and rest...
is that wat my lifes gonna be....running about doing this and that?

i really wonder... on the other hand i wonder...
am i jus making myself busy or am i reallie dat busy...
do i wanna have SO many things to do to keep myself occupied
do i make myslef all so busy so that pple can sympathise with me
do i make myself busy cos i wanna help pple and all cos of pride
i dunno , i dunno i really dunno...

but all i do know is that i really wanna take things slow... and go with the flow..
i wanna do the many things because i like to do them and not for jus the sake of it...
i wanna rush frm here to there for the many different pple cos i love them and they are important to me
i wanna do what i do cos thats what GOd wants me to do and not jus something to get it over and done with
i dun want time to zoommm me by... but i wanna treasure each moment
and look back on the fond memories..

oh GOd this is my pray...
that You'll make me aware
of what YOu want me to do
so that i can use my time as YOu choose
that is pleasing in YOur sight
and this battle i wont have to fight

-thank you Lord-

2005-05-17T20:36:00.000+10:00

And I thank You Lord
Yes, I thank You Lord
For the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day
As I let You lead

And I thank You Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care

But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
Cause when those tirals come
My human nature shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored

this song has never reallie meant much to me other than another song of worship and appreciation and jus saying thanks to God... but as i sang the words todae...it finally jus occured to me what the words really meant...that God puts difficulties in our life so that we realise the importance of the dependance on Him and that we have to rely and trust in Him cos we are unable to go thru on our own strength...and in that way we grow each day as we let HIM lead and not me, myself and I leading

yeah and when those difficult times actually pop out.. my human nature DOES shout the things to do and more often than not i actually do give in to my human nature of responding and God's prompting is so so ignored...
and yeah i guess each time crap does happen... God is there prompting me to what he wants me to do... but my voice is always so much louder... i wanna be still and hear what He has to say...

today i jus realised that God does has His ways of seeing me thru trials....He jus does... and all ive gotta do is trust Him.. thank you Lord for helping me realise that it isnt the end when we fail... but yet You pull us up... thank YOu!!

-dreams-

2005-05-17T16:18:00.000+10:00

recently ive been dreaming quite a bit.... actually it been quite draining when u dream... cos it takes up energy... i think... but all i know is dat when i wake up...i'm more tired than when i went to sleep...what doe dreams mean.... why do we dream???do dreams come true... God is there something u wanna tell me... or is there something thats been bugging me in my mind and i cant seem to let it go...why why why do i have so many dreams.... and why do my dreams haunt me and wake me up in cold sweat..thanking God that it wasnt real and only a dream....

honestly i dunno why... but i do know that it happens.. and sometimes it jus puzzles me....

-icky yucky mucky stuff-

2005-05-17T15:35:00.000+10:00

my day cant get any better....
yesterdae when i was on the way down to clayton for prata...
while waiting for the train i realised the sticky icky gu-ie thingie at the back of my shirt...
my first response was "oh crap, bird shit" but nah itr couldnt be cos it was not white-ish so waht on earth was this sticky icky couloourless thingie on my back and how on earth did it get there...
so natural instinct would be to get it off asap... so yeah i had to touch it.. but i had no tissue paper... so yes yes i touched it with my bare hands... and i jus had to know just wat it was... soooooo i smelled it... but hey it din smell like spit or bird shit...it actually smelled sweet like soap...hehehehe but yucks yucks yucks... was so grossed... was sticky and bubbly sweeet smelling thing... and i tried to rub off as much of it on the walll....

and todaeee....
was happily taking a nice stroll down town for dinner... nice nice nasi lemak...or meee siamm...but yeah... nice walk down in the nice nice nite sky... and guess wat happened... as i walked past the park...where the million and one possoms live.... guess wat jus rolled into my shoe... (my shoe's the kind without a backing so somtimes little stone and stuff roll in).... a little ball or possom poo....
and i was i jus stepped on it in my shoe and was all wet and icky mucky yucky...
i was like why is it so wet when like the road isnt wet at all.. and so natural instict was to..... bend down and touch it... Big mistake.. BIG BIG mistake... and i smelt it.... EVEN WORST!!!!!!! almost died when i realised what has jus happened... didn't know if i shld shout and or laugh.... ahhhhhHHhhhhhhh was so horrible....
no more open back shoe for me dats for sure... never noe wat will roll in next....

i hate all this icky yucky mucky stuff.....

-why why why-

2005-05-11T13:24:00.000+10:00

i'm in uni....i cant belive it..

i need to put in my assignment in less than 24 hours...

will i ever make it.... you think... i doubt so...

why why why

do i ALWAYS have to leave it to the night before...

is it the fact that the assignment is due yet another sunrise away??

i dunno... i reallie dunno...

when will i ever wake up and realise that I have to use the time i have wisely

and not sleep it away..

why why why

do i always sleep when so many things overwhelm my mind

but when i awake the problems are still there

why why why

will i only learn when i fail flat...

but i dun wanna fail flat....

but does the old saying go that u'll never learn till u fall

God please help me as i sit here and try to do what i need to do in whatever time i have...

i dun deserve of You what i ask

Lord have mercy on me please

But let Your will be done

- You'll still be faithful, O Lord-

2005-05-08T16:39:00.000+10:00

Like the sun that rises everyday

You are so faithful

Dear Lord You are faithful

Like the rain that You bring

And every breath that I breathe

You are so faithful O Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring

You are so faithful

Dear Lord You are faithful

Like the life that You give

To every beat of my heart

You are so faithful o Lord

I see a cros and the price You had to pay

I see the blood that wash my sins away

In the midst of the storm

Through the wind and the waves

You'll still be faithful

O You'll still be faithful

When the stars refuse to shine and time is no more

You'll still be faithful

You'll still be faithful, O Lord

Each day comes and yes Lord You are faithful to wake me up and go about my daily things

Each struggle comes and yes Lord You did not leave me

But is faithful to see me through

Thank you Lord for being so faithful to answer each prayer I pray

Thank you Lord for bringing the people,

For bringing the smiles

And for being in our midst

Lord truly You are so faithful, help me Lord to have more faith

-faithful-

2005-05-07T14:08:00.000+10:00

We're pilgrims on the journey of the narrow road

And those who've gone before us line the way

Cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary

Their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace

Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses

Let us run the race not only for the prize

But as those who've gone before us

Let us leave to those behind us

The heritage of faithfulness passed on through godly lives

Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

May the fire of our devotion light their way

May the footprints that we leave

Lead them to believe and the lives we live inspire them to obey

Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone

And our children sift though all we've left behind

May the clues that they discover and the memories they uncover

Become the light that leads them to the road we each must find

thank you for being faithful,

thank you that through your faith i've been encouraged,

let us continue to have faith

that God will see us thru this

-for the first time-

2005-05-07T12:12:00.000+10:00

-for the first time, i am looking in your eyes

for the first time, i'm seeing who you are

i can't beilve how much i see, when your looking back at me

now i understand what love is, for the first time-

hehehehehe.... i'm not in love for the first time... its jus for the first time i'm having this online bloggie

to tell almost the whole wide world how i feeel...

i NEVER EVER saw myself doing something like this... cos i always thought its reallie weird jus revealing ur dairy to everyone...and was really rude jus but then again... i think i'll understand how i feel more when i pen it down... hear wat my frens have to say and work thru it... and yes i belive that as i look back i will see how i've grown...

so ya... welcome to my world...